I've been feeling a bit lost. A bit direction-less lately.
I don't know what it is, I just am struggling with life. I find myself not finding any real purpose or meaning. What am I to do with with my life. Better yet, what have I done with my life.
I feel burnt out, beat down, tired, empty. Probably more than i should. I wonder if I'm just hard on myself, throwing myself a pity party, or if I'm just really this way.
I'm probably not making much sense. I suppose that's probably the case when you are trying to 'air' your feelings without trying to identify who I am.
I keep having this itching, this desire to create, to make something meaningful, to do something that people will appreciate. But I'm so tired of trying to do this, that I just don't want to anymore. I can't think straight, I can't for a consistent thought. Trying to think, to defend, to consider, it seems to meaningless and I just don't want to.
I'm tired to trying to prove I can do something to someone. They don't care anyway, so why bother?
I guess this post has become a dumping ground for some random thoughts right now, but since I don't write this stuff down normally, it's probably go to get out side of my head and out somewhere.
It's not like anyone reads this anyway. It just static in the ether anyway.